I realized this on Monday as I was getting dinner on the table, seating Cole with his food and drink on my right, then swinging the high chair and booster chair around my left side into a semi-circle so that I could easily reach all three children and alternate spoon feedings with the two smallest.
(Nic refers to this as our "stadium seating.")
Once we all sat down and began eating - it was quite a site - every 3rd spoonful, if I was lucky, actually made it into my mouth. As I'm alternating food bowls and spoons, because I was really trying to keep everything separate thanks to a little bug that's been floating through our house, I just had to laugh.
It reminded me of all the years that I'd dreamed of having twins. Then I realized that I do have "twins." They may be separated by two years and five pounds, but at this moment in time and for the next few months, I have my "twins!"
I love how they have the same favorite bath toy and neither one gets upset when it's taken, so every bath becomes a game of steal the toy, back and forth, over and over, with no tears, cries, or hitting.
I love how they sit next to each other and both intently try to figure out how a toy works. (I really love that every so often I see Xander trying to teach his sister how to use a toy that he understands better)
I love how curious about the world each of them are.
I love how both of them think that their biggest brother is the coolest person on earth and anything he does brings a smile to their face and laughter to the air.
I love it all.
Xander has made so many strides in the past few months and I know in my heart that Ella is fueling the fire. He's trying his best to stay ahead of the curve and although the gap is closing rapidly, I'm so impressed with how far he's come.
I know that this time of "twinness" will quickly come to an end and the transition will be challenging for Xander as he processes a new reality in which his sister is able to do things he can't yet master.
But, for now, we will rejoice and focus on the blessing that I never saw coming.
It doesn't look like anything I had ever pictured and may have come in an unconventional way, but my twins are here and they are both miracles in themselves!
